I've been like a nonstop bullet train of drawing lately, somehow I'm finding it fun, and it's amazing how much I'm getting done.
But I wonder if it's coming at the expense of social skills? Isabelle pointed out that everyone is drifting apart because of everyone settling into their tag teams, like mini cliques. I didn't even notice.
What did we do before when we were all inseparable? Has our friendship run its course? It's depressing to think about. Not that we still aren't close, but it's the fact we're not as close as we used to, and I can't figure out why.
And I'm starting to hope I'm not going through that 'mid-life crisis' rubbish because I've started to consider whether it's worth dating. Hmmmmmgh.
A little self-analysis, Calvin!
I'm comfortable with being really close friends, but I am affectionate. Maybe at times this may be misunderstood, and I hate misunderstandings, so I did consider maybe I should get serious about this. But I'm also unsure about commitment. So it's a matter of which one weighs heavier on me... maybe?
Urgh, maybe I should find someone to consult. But it sounds so creepy to talk about this kind of stuff. I might've already accidentally creeped out people. Grrrrgh, I don't know.
I think there are dark clouds looming on the horizon. I hope I can help.
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