Lunar New Year! I've been getting my share of ang paos to replenish my gradually diminishing money supply. You know, since I don't have a job, so my money-saving and Chinese New Year is what funds me for the whole year. Yesterday, there was a reunion dinner with the family. Nothing significant. Eating. Going home. Sleeping. Armoured Core V. Today, everyone came to our house to party though. Together with Vincent and Jodie. Despite all the people there, Jodie wasn't hindered from showing her affection for me. Leaning on my shoulder, kissing me on the cheek, random hugs, mounting me on the bed. Uhm. Ahem. I'm not very sure if I'm doing the right thing as a person who's rejecting her. I'm trying to be nice but she's... obsessed. Especially when Felicia came. And after a long time of not seeing her, our reunion was started with Felicia attacking me for making her stutter the name of the guy she admires. This made Jodie rush back home in a jealous rage or something. I'm not very sure what the right decision should have been. Should I have shown compassion? Pity? I can't stop her affection for me, but I don't think I can return them either, and any misunderstandings and overreactions she comes upon really isn't my business, but I can't help but feel guilty.
After everyone left, me, Vince and Felicia ended up having a nice best friend chat. Something we haven't had in awhile, I suppose. Since me and Vincent had thought we had exhausted all possible conversation topics, adding Felicia into the mix with her own worries stirred up more secrets we had about ourselves. Vincent being sure that he's bisexual, for one. Both of them have had experience with previous romantic partners, as well as their record of making out with people. And even though I'm a horny ass motherfucker, I'm still bloody bodily pure. Like, first kiss still here kind of pure. Which is kinda shameful with all the shit I spout, ahahaha. I just haven't found anyone special enough for me to give it to, as much as my curiosity beckons me. But I felt somewhat out of place in this conversation. I couldn't give any relationship advice, because I had none. Being special is the same as being different. And being different is the same as being lonely.
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