A lot of negative self-reflection today. I've been getting frustrated with myself for hitting my dead end and just leaving it like that. Barely making it for assignments, and doing a slack job and getting a regularly decent grade while rumor has it Groups 1 and 2 have superb artworks. Fuck! I keep telling myself to buck up but there's this big psychological block
Talked to Joey about it in an attempt to coerce her negative inner feelings out, and she kind of remedied my problem by changing my mindset on the situation not as doing irrelevant stuff to game design, but seeing it as challenges I have to overcome.
Still can't see to help her though. She has some bad anxiety, insecurity and inferiority issues and I don't know how to approach the solution.
Been also questioning love.
I don't feel emotions so finding love is hard. But maybe a love for thinker-types exists out there. I'm having that small panic I'll be alone forever, and that bothers me a little bit. Also this matter with Syai liking me and not being able to drop it makes it feel like I'll never be considered as a viable dating partner by any other classmate throughout the whole of this course. Life is confusing right now.
Just have to take things one at a time. Like seriously.
Focusing on the week just makes me remember I have work on weekends and that bums me out.
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