Haven't blogged because I've been tired the past few nights. I'm doing this now because I'm waiting for a video to render. I've been getting used to working, although I still feel like I'm terribly unproductive. At least I don't feel as alien as I did at first, but still the grief of not being creative at the same time as I am trying to earn money just frustrates me within.
Outside of work, I've been doing my fair share of art though. I'm picking up, and I'm quite proud. School holidays has started, leaving me more free, although friends have been inviting me out. Which is good, I before the holidays started I was craving for the holidays but as soon as it did I began to miss all my classmates. Work and friends have caused me to lose time with my ITE clique though. There's a slight sadness in me about that.
Many of my friends are grieving inside (not counting the ones that are just attracting attention), and I feel helpless, once again. I think I might be getting better at getting their mind off the matter but still no so much on helping them muster courage to tackle it on their own.
Met Ignatius again after so long through Vincent. He met with my classmates too, and man, he hasn't lost a single bit of coolness. I think that I find it hard to hang with Chinese-cliques now because I've been hanging out a lot with English-spoken classmates and old English friends.
I've heard my voice over a speaker and what sounds like a fancy british accent on the inside sounds like a whiny Singaporean boy trying to act Caucasian and this makes me tear my hair out.
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