I missed a day again. Damn it.
Today really pissed me off. Every time I create something for the Final Year Project, Shirleen or Justin have to comment on it. "It looks weird." "It's gay." "It's so ugly." And then they don't really tell me anything else. It'd be much nicer, I mean, if they actually did point out where it sucked, or suggested a part for me to improve on (even if I might disagree at first but it may come out nicer in the end). Okay, maybe I can't expect that out of Shirleen, but Justin. Oh god, that fecker this ticks me way off. I got him in my group cos' he's skilled, but Jesus Christ, he is whiny as hell. He's just finding every damn opportunity to snark at me just because he can. Even if the moment's inappropriate or even if the conversation doesn't even remotely involve me, he'd childishly call names. Or even if I'm not even talking to him he'd shout over. And he gloats every chance he gets. I know I shouldn't let such immature actions get to me or piss me off, and they say that guys' friendships are built on insults (although not tasteless, childish ones like these), but I'm not in the mood! I haven't been so annoyed at people in quite a while. Just... GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH! FUCKING HELL!
I don't like being angry. I don't know why, but I can't seem to find it in me to get openly angry so I can vent. It just bottles up inside and I feel like exploding, but I'm indifferent on the outside. I suppose they call this 'silent anger'?
*sigh* I guess I'm just in a bad mood today, or maybe I'm just stressed out. Having to think ahead for the other members of my team because they won't do it themselves takes quite a toll on me. It'd actually be nicer if I could share these worries with someone, but I don't want to trouble anyone with my petty burdens either. Guess there's only you, blog-baby (._.)
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