11th March - Freedom

Well, I've quit my job. I worked for a week, I did enjoy some parts of it, but I really don't think I could last in a workplace where I barely understand anyone and when I get told to do something it has to be repeated 2-3 times and I still might not get it. I'm jobless. And although I don't have money flowing into my bank account, for some reason, I'm quite happy that I have free, empty blocks of time again. It seems like back when I worked, I felt like a robot, just going through the functions. With this free time, my mind wanders. My mind feels alive. My world feels alive. I suppose if I'm going to work, I should find something that doesn't let restrict my thought process. I mean, being a waiter, just repeating taking orders and washing dishes and mopping tables, it's a constant, boring cycle, and it wears out my mind because there's no room for imagination.

For now, I think I'll work on the S4 League manga. Tommy's back in Singapore again, out of nowhere. Played some Tera Online with him and Darren at his place, and kicked both their asses in Halo ONCE AGAIN. Man, just hanging out like this is fun. Time to myself is great. But sometimes I feel lonely, and nothing remedies that better than chilling with friends. There's... a few other cliques that I should be hanging out with, but I don't know if I fit in with them. I mean, sure, I'm in the Whatsapp group, and Facebook groups, and whatnot, but... I don't know, I feel really out of place. I read all the conversations going on still though. I find it so awkward and hard to jump into the conversations they have. It seems like I only actually talk in any of these groups when my specifically my name is called, because then I know someone actually wants my input ._.

Look at my social life crashing and burning as soon as school's out. I do hope Poly's a lot better. On the other hand, I also worry about me and my ITE friends forgetting each other as time goes on, as we make better friends in Poly. Will keeping distance now numb the pain for when it does come? Questions that continue to have no real correct answer...