Felicia initially wanted to come over today to use my oven for her mad, sudden baking frenzy, but the sudden appearance of the great monthly blood demon and her first tackle against menstrual cramps stopped it. I managed to sleep a few more hours today, thanks to that. I woke up after and decided to head over to Vincent's house.
We didn't really do much. He had been overseas here and there for the past weeks, so I actually hadn't seen him in awhile though. It was like normal, our meetings. We'd chat about things that had happened to us in the time we hadn't seen each other while using our own laptops. It's funny, we've been best friends for so long, apart from the new events we don't actually have a lot to talk about. Maybe a few other topics like girls (cos' you know, you can never run out of things to talk about girls, be it good or bad), games, shows. The like. Yet, we aren't bored at all. Just squatting around and talking rubbish, and poking fun at things that make sense, and trying to make sense of nonsense. A friend is someone I can do these things with.
Maybe because i haven't made many close friends in my younger years that I value friendship so much. The gap between acquaintance (or dubbed as 'friend' for less syllables) and friend (which I actually mean 'close friend') is actually pretty wide. I like talking with people, but at the same time I'm wary about who I talk with. I'm fun and games, most of the time, but quite often, I do like to talk about serious matters too. Heart-to-heart talks, I also do quite enjoy. But rarely do I find someone I can talk like that with. And people whom I can talk with them like that with, I would consider as friends. I'm probably kinda uptight about this compared to many other people, but... it just feels right to me. I fear losing friends. I'm jealous of people who can make plenty of friends right off the bat, and can somehow keep them all. Just to try and make some, I have to keep impressing them, or keep trying to be interesting. And most of them don't really stick around still. *sigh*
Tomorrow we get our Poly admission results. Will my friendships here survive the transition from ITE to Poly?
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