6th March - Server

The reason I haven't been posting much is because I got a part-time job. I work as a Server in this diner called Udon King. And the name's bloody misleading. I initially asked for the job because I thought it'd be Japanese food, but it's mixed culture fusion cuisine. It's bloody disgusting. To me, at least. I still question how this place gets customers. The job itself isn't... that bad. I'm not ranting because I think it's hard. I'm ranting because I'm the only fluent English-speaker in the place and I have no one to converse with, and I can't understand orders from anyone. And work as a server/waiter is actually a lot more skills-demanding than a lot of people think. You have to coordinate so many things, and you have a lot more tasks than just taking orders. You have to clean up plates. Wipe tables. Set menus. Deliver food. Sounds little. But then multiply that by like 60. And that's not counting the extra orders some customers make. Or some of them being dicks and asking for extra shit. And the strain on your back by the end of the day. Ohhh god damn. You will bless your bed.

Well, this sounds like some insignificant whining from a punk who's never held up a job for long periods of time before. And it's not entirely wrong. I mean, I love my free time. I miss it already. My free time is what keeps my mind active and imaginative. Coming up with brilliant shit. And subsequently forgetting it by accident. But still. I feel like a drone of the system just by having this mind-numbing job. I need the money, as much as I am skilled at saving, but maybe trying to get it fast by pushing a job I hate may not be the best method for my soul DX
I do want to quit. But I can't bring myself to do it. The manager seems to be really eager to have this young boy on board the team, and from what she says (and what I understand from it) it sounds like she has high hopes for me. I've already fucked up majorly a few times, broke some shit. I've only been here less than a week. I really want to pack up and go, but my conscience is really making me feel the guilt pangs... How do I go about this...