Oh god, this is so intimidating. I mean, c'mon, look at this shit. It's... it's... LOOK AT ALL THESE STRANGERS. Well, Jun Cheng's in my class, although in actuality, I would have preferred to be in a different class. Not that I hate him or anything, but I didn't want to have my options closed because I subconsciously ended up hanging out with only the people I know instead of going into the fray and finding out the qualities of these people. There are only four classes and... as expected, the number of girls is overshadowed by the sheer number of guys, much to my dismay. Yeah, actually the biggest disappointment I'm having is the lack of ladies in my class, ahahahaha. Okay, I can kind of make out the girls with the english names... but these Malay and Chinese names, I have no idea if they are girls or guys...
I got thrown a list of school rules too and... LONG HAIR ISN'T ALLOWED? WHAT THE FUCK, MAN, that's not what I was promised! Aaaaaaagh, I'm pretty worried now...!
*sigh* And so the countdown to school begins, huh. I'm part looking forward to making new friends, at the same time I'm afraid of meeting bitchy people. At the same time, I'm also afraid of being judged for who I am, or because Jun Cheng who would probably hang out around me, they might think that I'm part ah beng or asshole or whatever. Aaaaaaah. All these self-conscious stuff! Socializing with people sucks, man. To have to try hard to be a me that isn't me. What a terribly shitty feeling. I want to open up to people. I like to talk about personal problems and opinions, not having to 'lolololol kyaa kyaa ahahahahaha you so funny' all the time. Having fun is nice, but I seek a more deeper understanding of a person than what makes them laugh. Talk to me, someone...
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