For some reason, words aren't forming very well in my head right now. I would describe my day how I hanged out with my friends, but it feels so redundant after I've been doing that same shit the past few days. My relationship with my Poly friends is actually getting better though. I haven't been hanging out with Jun Cheng and Melvin much though, I wonder if they feel left out.
There's a guy named Bryan in my class. Tries to be good. Really sucks at it. Judgemental and rude, but has good intentions... I think. I mean, he's trying to make friends, but he sucks at just being a person. And when it comes to talking to girls, he has to mention something sexual, always. He was trying to edge past Gillian to get to the front today, and he said something along the line of 'Please move out of the way or my penis can't fit through.' WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT TO A GIRL?! THAT'S SO UNGENTLEMANLY!! Speaking of ladies, I'm actually surprised that I can make friends with girls without even considering romance now. I mean Gillian, okay, I'm still getting used to talking to her, because I'm not used to girls with not a lot of things in common approaching me first. But Joey, Syai and Liana, I'm so amazed I can be just friends with them. I can joke with them, and I'm not throwing out dirty jokes by the load like I used to do. I've done it! I've gotten over my gynephobia!
I actually look forward to talking with friends with each day. Although I know that these days eventually will pass, and soon we'll really divide into our own cliques like how ITE went, but I want to try and keep everyone together as much as possible. I'll mediate arguments. I'll defend outcasts. I'll do whatever it takes to keep these people together. I don't know how, but I'll deal with every problem right in front of me, right now!
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