1st May - Conversation

Today's Darren's birthday! Truth is, I wanted to spend the day rotting at home, but I thought, you know, on Tommy's birthday we really celebrated the shit out of it. Darren was the one that introduced me to Tommy, I should really do something for him too. I couldn't really think of anything, and anything I could buy, he sure could afford a lot easier than I can. With no plan, I decided to go out with Feebee first, since Vincent didn't want to wake up after watching the Champion's League late last night. Maybe I've just gotten used to being around girls shorter than me now, but Feebee seems a lot taller. I started off by talking about school and stuff. About how I came across Joey's tweets about a cute guy winking at her and she exploded internally and she wanted to strike up a conversation but she was too shy. And that guy was me. The day was Wednesday too. I was feeling cheeky that day. We made eye contact and I winked, just like how Vincent told me he did when he made eye contact with random girls he had never seen before. HAHAHAHA This is the first time I've made a lady react like that towards me. I'm really, really amazed XDD Had there actually been more girls in my class, I would really be in a serious dilemma on who to talk to. NOT THAT MY ENTIRE SCHOOL LIFE IS ABOUT GIRLS. IT'S JUST WHENEVER THE OPPORTUNITY ARISES EVERY NOW AND THEN. Back to Feebee, I realized I ran out of conversation topics really fast. I like talking to people one on one, but I suck at keeping conversations flowing. When Vincent came, it got a lot better because he could say something and I could continue it. And even when we were both quiet it was a lot less awkward. But still, I wish I could be like, really social with anyone, not just Vincent. Even if it's just the two of us I can make the other laugh and never run out of interesting things to talk about. I did talk with Syai about the different types of people I've observed before, like those that are good at starting conversations, those that are good at continuing, those who just agree, those who strike at witty moments, those that are critical and rather'd be alone, and even though I think I do a fine job with my people watching hobby, I still can't help some of my friends who seem to have problems. They do post that they're hurting, and I want to help, but I have no idea how to get them to talk to me. I talk. They tell me they're not in the mood. D'oh, I fucked up. OTL Is there a right answer out there?