13th May - Detection

I'm quite glad I'm actually pretty good friends with some peeps. Ashley in particular. Both of us are fucking retarded. I enjoy his company very much. I really should've grouped up with him for Principles of Game Design. We had to group up in teams of three, and me and Ashley joined up at first to do Zelda. But no-fucking-anyone else plays Zelda. Then Gillian and Inez invited me to their group cos' they wanted to do Final Fantasy. And I was like, woah, gamer girls passionate about Final Fantasy? Shit I'm in! And I ditched Ashley, much to my regret afterward after I found out Gillian and Inez both don't actually play the games, they just fucking fangirl over the Square Enix-level graphics hot guys. Oh god. I managed to convince them to change to a game that at least two out of the three of us play, that is, Super Smash Bros. Brawl. Me and Inez play the shit out of it, and we'd probably have to badger Gillian into it too. It feels like I'm carrying this team though. I'm the one doing all the typing and the classifying, and the instructions. And when I let them do it I see all the typos and shit and I'm like UUUUUGGGHHHH. It'd be nice to work in a team of just all mes. That'll be like the maximum productivity team. Once we get past the procrastination.

Gillian broke down later on in class today too. And Syai was right on it, comforting her. I had no idea what's going on, I couldn't possibly ask. I mean, that'll be like I'm interrogating her all over again. She came back later fine, but I found clean blood on Syai's penknife. I thought it might be Syai cutting but her forearm seemed to be fine (on first glance?). She might've helped Gillian cut, but... I couldn't see anything either. Geez, I feel so helpless. I've noticed multiple people in class with their depression issues. Some with good reason, some less. Gillian and Syai both tire from life, Ashley is on the road to recovery from his new beginnings here, Wei Qiang not really that depressed but just seeking attention, Isabelle, with the newfound knowledge of her boyfriend losing the love, Joey with her inner loneliness, amongst a few others. You know, it's so stupid. The limitations that I have realized. I can only tell if people are distressed, but I suck, absolutely suck, at solving the problem. A person like me, with multiple talents gained from my Realization of Self, can't possibly begin to understand and empathize with the average person. I can't comfort them, I have zero idea how they feel. For myself, I break everything else down to a logic and it works out fine, but nobody else works by that way, and my solutions are invalid. I'm just a metal detector, not a minesweeper.