The past few days had been spent catching up on homework. Especially the group projects. Finally! Everything is done! Now it's just the individual assignments, which are a lot less stressful since we don't have to constantly discuss! Thank god for no more group projects WHOOHOO!!
-which is what I would say, but these recent projects have turned out amazing. I've always thought a whole team of me would be flawless, but working with some people in which I've thought were problematic and that I'd have to carry, have surprised me over the course of the projects. The results of every project that has come out so far, I can honestly be proud about. That they have been good jobs. It's amazing. One to notice especially is Gillian's amazing video editing ability. I had thought that my minimal knowledge of Adobe Premiere Pro would put me in front of the whole class in video editing, but when she did hers and showed it to me, my jaw figuratively dropped. I would not have even imagined that it would be presented in that way, and yet it's so amazing! Had I been cocky and done it, it would have come out a lot more lengthy and boring, although informative. A slew of fantastic projects. I need to learn to stop underestimating people and stop overestimating myself.
Recently my friends have been in states of various kinds of depression, and I've been trying to help, but I am incapable of it, once again. I try to explain to them how things would turn out better or how there are better things out there or how to work their way around the problem in my sagely-robotic-long-analysis method but it only ends up confusing them. And in a way, me as well, on what response could they possibly be having now. I do wish I really could tell what goes on in a person's head, to know what they'd like to hear or be able to match what I want to say to what they would understand. The innards is my own mind is so complex, I want to say it out but the only way I can express it is in long chunks of words. I need to gain a better grasp of my identity. Of me. My dreams. My ambitions. My goals. My ideas. My ideals. My beliefs. My soul.
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