20th May - Lucidity

I'm surprised! Inez actually does work! Granted, perhaps it's because none of us did anything, but I was rather impressed to see that she worked on a PowerPoint for our Principles of Game Design project. Even though it's just copypasta, it's pleasing to know even this crazy yaoi fangirl midget has a work ethic.

I suppose the biggest event that has happened to me today really was me just pacing around the third floor pondering about my RPG Maker idea. I really wanted to make something great. I couldn't just make another mockery of traditional RPGs, because that gets old and it has no depth. I had to make something amazing. I had to create a world that was amazing. And not just another fucking fantasy JRPG piece-of-shit. That's overplayed and overdone. I have to make something that stands out. Making something unique is something I'd have to be good at, I'm not going to go with the flow and make some cookie-cutter basic thing just to make ends meet. I have to set records in history. And although progress is slow right now, I did think it through very much. I came up with some brilliant ideas. To me, anyway. Details about the setting, special gimmicks, within the restrictions of RPG Maker but enough to make it great. Or, at least it seems that way in my head. I know I'll probably hit a few bumps along the way, procrastination included, but I hope I'll be able to grow enough to ingrain enough maturity in my mind that this is my dream, and this is what I want to do.

I met Zi Sheng today. He's been working at the Vegetarian Food Stall at my school recently. It's so great to see my programming counterpart. With him no longer in the same school as me, seeing how he's going to army first, I've been lacking a person I could rant and talk to. Zi Sheng has been lonely over not having seen anyone other than Vanessa for so long, it was so great to just talk to him again. I first complained about the peculiarity of my class, and then we went on and on and on, and then it came to the topic of games and it got really heated. We're both so passionate about this shit, I can't wait for when I'm good enough to make it real, and work in a company with him by my side, taking the world by storm in concept, art and programming. It's my life's goal!