12th May - Guesses

I've already made some regrettable decisions over the course of this weekend, god dammit. During a conversation with Joey, there was this moment I couldn't resist my prediction skills. My SCAN Psycho-Skill and general guessing ability. I described what I saw in her submerged personality and also deduced that she was picking her lip during the conversation. And I nearly got them both correct. Which impressed... myself. I mean, every time I do this and I get it correct, I always impress myself. BUT FUUUUUCK, I was supposed to be normal and not stand out! Me being able to draw already makes me stand out, yet I've already lectured Nas like real mature like, joined 10 clubs, showed an ability to rap, and now I revealed my fucking Psycho-Skill?! SHIIT!! I'm just sticking out like a sore thumb more and more! I wanted to fit in this time around! And now... And now... Q_Q Now everyone'll see me differently... They'll treat me all friendly-like, but what if in their heads they're all seeing me as superior and they'll never be honest with me? I'm so worried...

Yet even with my omnipotent mind reading combination skills, I still can't solve everyone's problems as much as I'd like. Recently Wei Qiang's been groaning about being depressed and emo and needing someone to talk to. And as much as the solution to his wallowing is as clear as fucking day to me, I just can't seem to bring myself to go help him. He really seems like he's fishing for sympathy, and god, do I hate those kinds of people. Their mindsets are so straightforward and transparent it's annoying D: He's either really lonely and needs someone to talk to, or he's had a girl that has caught his attention and he's hoping for her pity. Either way, is the opportunity arises that I have to take action, it's really simple. Then there's Gillian, who counts on me as her 'gan', which is like a brother... of sorts? She's tired of life. Tired of everything. She's been keeping all her hardships bottled up inside and wants to implode, but I can't seem to get any information out of her, because she says that she's tired of 'everything'. I... am at a loss. I think this is where girls make better listeners than guys. I'm not sure at all how to approach it. I'm so used to tackling and deducing a situation based on their mindsets and the hints I'm given, but when such a crucial moment appears and all I can do is disturb her more with my interrogation... I really feel like shit. I need to revise my psychological approaches if I want to help more people.