4th May - Infatuation

Today there was the May the Fourth be with you Star Wars event in school, I decided to go, on behest of my classmates bugging me. I actually rather enjoyed it, seeing how I never actually did watch Star Wars. Me and my Poly friends left for lunch at AMK Hub after that. Shirleen and the rest wanted to come over today, so a while later I left the group. And when I met up with my old ITE friends, I really noticed the huge difference in how I interact with them. Maybe it's because my Poly friends speak mostly English, and this bunch mostly Chinese, but I do not know whether to be upset or happy that I'm currently enjoying the company of my Poly friends more than my ITE friends. Does this come with knowing each other for a long time? I felt like such a bad host, playing Zohan, which I enjoy, and we didn't actually do anything fun the whole day really.

Back on the Facebook chat, the class tackles love, and how I'm such an adorable motherfucker but still single. And it baffled everyone, how I just don't perceive the concept of love as easily as they do. I mean, it's  been only 3 weeks, how can you possibly know someone enough to know that you're in love with them? It's so bizarre. Darren got into a relationship too, and wow, congratulations to him, but really? Will this last, knowing them only this long? You haven't seen how they react through crises, or how they really are inside. Do they snap violently under pressure? Do they have inner wounds they'd rather not show? Personally I think all these are important, which is why I'm single right now. I mean, from the hints I'm gathering, Syai likes me. She's a good friend and all, and I never really saw her past that. What's more, I suspect her just getting out of a bad relationship is why she's showing so much affection. But had I been as hasty to jump into a relationship as some others I know, I would be with a girlfriend now, but at the same time, it probably wouldn't last. I'm not dating anyone until I've known them at least... I don't know, half a year, give or take? It really depends on the situations that happen in between. And even if a girl I do end up fancying confesses to me before then, unfortunately I'm going to have to reject until I know more. I'm... such a boring robot of a person. But I just can't resist the need to bind logic to everything in my life, even love, whom people say you should just feel, not think about. I don't know about that...