Today was my graduation ceremony! Apart from the monotony of the ceremony itself, with the wearing of the stiff gowns and the sitting and waiting and the formalities, it was a welcome closure to the journey that was my ITE life.
I left class early and changed into my dress shirt and tie before I left with Jun Cheng for ITE. God damn, it was so stuffy! Shirleen tackled me from behind shortly afterward, god, it's so good to see this darling gal again,especially after basking in the... diverse environment of my class, her snapbacks to reality and straightforwardness was very welcome. The old clique, the "family", all over again. Of course I felt that out-of-place feel again, but this time it wasn't deliberate. My brain probably imprinted this behavior when I'm with them. But at least this time around I was able to let loose a little bit more, to stop worrying like a little bitch about what I look like and be the true me, because it was alright. And alright is good.
Mom came to the ceremony later on, and she saw a few of my achievements shown up on the screen before meeting me after I got my certificate and camwhoring with me right in the middle of nowhere. Ahahaha, a pity she had to leave so early. Photos and videos were shown of our journey in ITE, and I got a little emotional inside. Clearly not as much as Shirleen though, seeing how she cried. I really should've burst into tears too, these were... very, very good times.
When we were dismissed out later, seeing all the parents with their kids all happy and like, I cringed inside. I was a tad jealous, seeing dads and moms being really proud of their kids there. Mom was proud of me too, but she's busy, and I understand, but I still get a bit envious. But then, I was called back by my friends to camwhore and screw around. None of them had family over too. I wasn't alone. This is my "family" too. I felt a lot better. With this conclusion, will the paths we take begin to diverge further? I will miss these people, and I will miss these moments.
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