We had to explore some artsy places in and around Outram Park today for Design Fundamentals. One of the shitty parts was having to get in a group, because I wanted take a video of the whole trip as a 'zombie apocalypse' instead of an art tour. Of course, looking at it now, listening to my terrible recorded voice, I can deem this as a failure. A bit worried for my project now, hope I can salvage it by just... kicking out the audio. This trip was quite beneficial overall though. Lots of chances to increase friendship points all around. In the end I was threatened with failure were I not in a group, so I begged Gillian and Bunninez to let me in theirs. Yay. But now what.
It's actually rather amusing to see the drama surrounding the lovebirds Shawn and Joey increase. Being the victim of the OTP Zombies not so long ago, I empathize with how they feel being teased by everyone, but not joining in is the maximum of my capability. I'm enjoying everyone's ways of teasing too much to try and stop them HAHAHA Joey did say that I'm the second best person to hang out with, and aww, that's such a big compliment for me. I'll continue trying to be this dramatic, charisma-oozing, annoying prick as the years go on.
Syai is starting to enter a dangerous state of mind. I'm worried for her. The mystery of where the blood on her pen knife came from was revealed. It came from her palm. I... I am no good with feelings, I cannot begin to feel what she's feeling. I don't know the cause either, so I can't give advice. Apparently she disappeared earlier on too, and from her twitter posts it seemed she wanted to commit suicide. I can only hug her. Try to make her feel okay. Tell her to stop hurting herself. But this is it. I can't do anything past this. I'm helpless. And these hugs that I can give, they can only having an effect for so long. I'd be lucky if it worked once or twice more now. I want to tell her that she can live her life anew from this point on, she's in Poly, but I don't know how to throw it in a way it's so impactful for her she would stop all her self-hate. I fear what if I'm the cause of her suffering?
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